UNDERSTAND ME

You do not understand me and dare not try.
I confuse you a bit but you don't know why.

I seem so happy..."How can that be?"
my image is shown as oppressed on t.v.

All you've been taught was so real to you;
I am proving different..."Now what to do?"

Do you keep believing in that image you "knew"
or try to understand this from my view?

I am sane, I have a mind and please don't call me weak.
I live and love, laugh and cry and am allowed to speak.

I think for myself, reason and rhyme and am far from being oppressed
But you're so quick to think that of me simply by how I'm dressed.

This is my choice, my own free will that's why I dress as you see;
so before you judge by what you "knew", come and talk to me.

Anonymous 

Somewhere I belong

I remember when I was a bit younger, I started listening to linkin Park and watched these Dragon ball Z videos.Listening to LP recently brought back all those memories... (LOL - Lotsa funny ones.... was that really me??)


Here's one. Not my favourite, but it just applies itself so well for now....

(When this began)

I had nothing to say

And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me

(I was confused)

And I let it all out to find

That Im not the only person with these things in mind

(Inside of me)

But all that they can see the words revealed

Is the only real thing that Ive got left to feel

(Nothing to lose)

Just stuck, hollow and alone

And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel

What I thought was never real

I wanna let go of the pain

Ive felt so long

(Erase all the pain till its gone)

I wanna heal, I wanna feel

Like Im close to something real

I wanna find something Ive wanted all along

Somewhere I belong

And Ive got nothing to say

I cant believe I didnt fall right down on my face

(I was confused)

Looking everywhere only to find

That its not the way I had imagined it all in my mind

(So what am I)

What do I have but negativity

Cause I cant justify way everyone is looking at me

(Nothing to lose)

Nothing to gain, hollow and alone

And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel

What I thought was never real

I wanna let go of the pain

Ive felt so long

(Erase all the pain till its gone)

I wanna heal, I wanna feel

Like Im close to something real

I wanna find something Ive wanted all along

Somewhere I belong

I will never know

Myself until I do this on my own

And I will never feel

Anything else until my wounds are healed

I will never be

Anything till I break away from me

I will break away

I'll find myself today

I wanna heal, I wanna feel

What I thought was never real

I wanna let go of the pain

Ive felt so long

(Erase all the pain till its gone)

I wanna heal, I wanna feel

Like Im close to something real

I wanna find something Ive wanted all along

Somewhere I belong

I wanna heal, I wanna feel

Like I am somewhere I belong

I wanna heal, I wanna feel

Like I am somewhere I belong

Somewhere I belong

IcE CrEaM VS FrOzEn YoGuRt

 For Tharwat - my Ice cream inspiration 

Ice cream

You scream

We all scream

For Ice cream

Had frozen yogurt and Ice cream over the weekend and still can't decide....

Made me feel like a little girl again.... I was sitting on a bench swinging side to side while eating the cone with not a care in the world

Had this huge cone with chocolate sauce, English toffee, chocolate sauce, strawberry a dollop of chocolate and Milo crumbs over... SWEET HEAVEN

Later had the banana caramel Ice cream waffle...ABSOLUTELY  DE VINE


Apparently the Frozen yogurt is healthier but has more fat than the ice cream.... or at least its something like that


How do you decide???

All I know is that i love these frozen little deserts....


Making my mouth water just thinking about it........
..........mmmmmm......


I tHiNk Im In LoVe....

Devils Descent

I love to read.... a whole lot of crap ( as a good friend puts it)

Mostly Supernatural love stories..... Yes, like the twilight kind

I have just finished reading a book " Devils Descent" by Claudia D Christians.
It is not for the faint hearted and not for the under aged.....

A  story of a Vampire and a Resurrectors twisted love / hate relationship. I must emphasise
there is alot of explicit content there in.

More about me

Just so you know straight away AGAIN.... that this is not some Islamic blog. It is anything but

Its all about ME - LOL

Just gonna post anything that comes to my mind that I find interesting ( which is almost anything - LOL)

SO......... if there are things that you find offencive, these are just my views, my opinion, or whats on my mind at that moment

I am a young South African woman, going through the changes of everyday life. Trying to find myself, and this is probably what this is all about.

There are many things I love and dislike (Hate is such a strong word). Finding new things, playing around and finding how it works....

Welcome to my road of discovery......